thinking...thinking.... / 1:26 AM

im beginning to accept other's flaws. accept others no matter how bad they are. for me, myself, i have flaws of my own which others accepted without me knowing. *hey Bargs, ur a nice person* *sori that i was mean to you before*

am not getting all the attention i need. people are busy with their finals. so am i. have to endure this for the time being. they will come back to me once this shit is over and done with. and so will i.

changes in mah close friends are scaring me. but whose to be blamed when me, myself have changed a whole lot too.

eyes are tired. mind's still thinking of finals. scary thoughts.

miss him. *things that are shared, are not meant to be all yours...remember that Yana*

things to do a day before flight...
*sleep
*pack mah lagguage
*call didi
*call perth
*sleep

things to do in thai...
*have as much fun as i can with mah best friend
*ride horse
*studio pics with Perth
*play water at the beach
*shop at flee market for cheap stuffs
*shop till i drop...fake branded goods
*buy fabric for mum
*buy stuffs for friends and family
*dye mah hair red
*rebond my hair
*change my hairstyle
*endure 5 hours sitting at the hairdresser
*eat good food
*meet cute thai guys (kidding!)

things to do when i get back in singapore...
*buy liquor with perth at singapore airport
*call daddy and didi
*tell didi i miss him
*hug daddy

things to do the next few days in singapore...
*meet didi
*catch movie with halis
*more shopping with perth
*meet cute people

things to do for the new term...
*change image
*look better
*promise mahself to wrok extra hard
*find a design firm to work in
*stop being lazy

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

thinking...thinking.... / 1:26 AM

im beginning to accept other's flaws. accept others no matter how bad they are. for me, myself, i have flaws of my own which others accepted without me knowing. *hey Bargs, ur a nice person* *sori that i was mean to you before*

am not getting all the attention i need. people are busy with their finals. so am i. have to endure this for the time being. they will come back to me once this shit is over and done with. and so will i.

changes in mah close friends are scaring me. but whose to be blamed when me, myself have changed a whole lot too.

eyes are tired. mind's still thinking of finals. scary thoughts.

miss him. *things that are shared, are not meant to be all yours...remember that Yana*

things to do a day before flight...
*sleep
*pack mah lagguage
*call didi
*call perth
*sleep

things to do in thai...
*have as much fun as i can with mah best friend
*ride horse
*studio pics with Perth
*play water at the beach
*shop at flee market for cheap stuffs
*shop till i drop...fake branded goods
*buy fabric for mum
*buy stuffs for friends and family
*dye mah hair red
*rebond my hair
*change my hairstyle
*endure 5 hours sitting at the hairdresser
*eat good food
*meet cute thai guys (kidding!)

things to do when i get back in singapore...
*buy liquor with perth at singapore airport
*call daddy and didi
*tell didi i miss him
*hug daddy

things to do the next few days in singapore...
*meet didi
*catch movie with halis
*more shopping with perth
*meet cute people

things to do for the new term...
*change image
*look better
*promise mahself to wrok extra hard
*find a design firm to work in
*stop being lazy