/ 9:35 PM

Hoikz to everyone who cares to read my boring little blog.

What state am I in right now? I'm kindda in this drunk mood, very exhausted, knowing nothing...well I do know something, but u know what I mean. It's this horrible "brain's-not-working" feeling you get when you only got 4 hours of sleep in 2 whole days. 2 projects were due a while ago in class. Although Im feeling very, very tired now, Im happy that the presentation went well. smilez*

Have you ever get this kindda weird feeling when you actually already lost your feelings for that someone you liked, but when he told you he's with someone else, you kindda feel something flicking your heart. It happened to me a while ago. Sheesh...like duh everyone knows Andry's mah good friend, & I have no more crush-y feeling for him anymore, but it just felt weird when I felt my heart doing it's thang when he said, "Di, I call you back later. Im with my girlfriend ah."
But after that freaky situation, I smiled. I went..."Oohh...finally he's got a girl again eyy." winkz*

Mah parents scolded me for gaining weight. They said I look like a married person. So I snapped back by telling them how fickled-minded they are. When I was in mah skin-thin figure days, weighing just 45kg, they scolded me like hell. They forced me to eat. They scolded me when I only had yougurt or grapes stucked down mah throat for the entire day. Now that Im very berisi, they told me to keep it down on mah food intake. sheesh*
I feel happier this way I swear. It's the feeling of making yourself happy and not trying too hard to impress others. It's this "Im beautiful no matter what they say" feeling. You get what I mean aight??

Relationship:
.....
it's blank + duno where we are + boring state
uhuh....
yawnz*
nothing's cooking

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 9:35 PM

Hoikz to everyone who cares to read my boring little blog.

What state am I in right now? I'm kindda in this drunk mood, very exhausted, knowing nothing...well I do know something, but u know what I mean. It's this horrible "brain's-not-working" feeling you get when you only got 4 hours of sleep in 2 whole days. 2 projects were due a while ago in class. Although Im feeling very, very tired now, Im happy that the presentation went well. smilez*

Have you ever get this kindda weird feeling when you actually already lost your feelings for that someone you liked, but when he told you he's with someone else, you kindda feel something flicking your heart. It happened to me a while ago. Sheesh...like duh everyone knows Andry's mah good friend, & I have no more crush-y feeling for him anymore, but it just felt weird when I felt my heart doing it's thang when he said, "Di, I call you back later. Im with my girlfriend ah."
But after that freaky situation, I smiled. I went..."Oohh...finally he's got a girl again eyy." winkz*

Mah parents scolded me for gaining weight. They said I look like a married person. So I snapped back by telling them how fickled-minded they are. When I was in mah skin-thin figure days, weighing just 45kg, they scolded me like hell. They forced me to eat. They scolded me when I only had yougurt or grapes stucked down mah throat for the entire day. Now that Im very berisi, they told me to keep it down on mah food intake. sheesh*
I feel happier this way I swear. It's the feeling of making yourself happy and not trying too hard to impress others. It's this "Im beautiful no matter what they say" feeling. You get what I mean aight??

Relationship:
.....
it's blank + duno where we are + boring state
uhuh....
yawnz*
nothing's cooking