/ 11:31 PM

it's raya & i just got back.

Total collection - $70.00...good enuff...better than nothing.
*aku dah besar...so tak yah nak collection lagik*

Total shock - when Hilmy appeared out of nowhere.
Aku terchungap nampak dier. We totally ignored each other. It felt so akeward. I swear my hands were shivering. They shivered more when his Mum talked to me. Pinggan yang aku pegang tu lagi sikit nak jatoh! He got a bike accident again. hurhur**
Bro said we looked like a couple. He kept on making sounds like *ehem ehem* on me when Hilmy was around. Dad said he's thinner now. *banyak fikiran kot*
i don't blame him lah for ignoring me for 1 year liao. it's no one's fault. mainly mine i guess**

Makan-makan at home at 4pm later. Glad that a lot of them can make it. But Im so sad Hunn has to go jalan raya with his fam so he can't come.

**
13th of Nov 2004 (Hari Raya eve)

A girl by the name of Yana went shopping alone at IKEA on the eve of hari raya.
Poor me has to go all alone cause' Hunn was so semangat mopping & sweeping the floor at home. Shouldn't it be the other way round?? ** hmm...*yana thinks hard*
I insisted on having anyone else to accompany me. Bought a few things for the house & my room. Total...*ching ching* $152.00. plus cab fee...around $170.

Ironic isn't it?? At 4am, I was still making last minute kueh all alone.
Had a little chat with Hunn at 2.30am.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 11:31 PM

it's raya & i just got back.

Total collection - $70.00...good enuff...better than nothing.
*aku dah besar...so tak yah nak collection lagik*

Total shock - when Hilmy appeared out of nowhere.
Aku terchungap nampak dier. We totally ignored each other. It felt so akeward. I swear my hands were shivering. They shivered more when his Mum talked to me. Pinggan yang aku pegang tu lagi sikit nak jatoh! He got a bike accident again. hurhur**
Bro said we looked like a couple. He kept on making sounds like *ehem ehem* on me when Hilmy was around. Dad said he's thinner now. *banyak fikiran kot*
i don't blame him lah for ignoring me for 1 year liao. it's no one's fault. mainly mine i guess**

Makan-makan at home at 4pm later. Glad that a lot of them can make it. But Im so sad Hunn has to go jalan raya with his fam so he can't come.

**
13th of Nov 2004 (Hari Raya eve)

A girl by the name of Yana went shopping alone at IKEA on the eve of hari raya.
Poor me has to go all alone cause' Hunn was so semangat mopping & sweeping the floor at home. Shouldn't it be the other way round?? ** hmm...*yana thinks hard*
I insisted on having anyone else to accompany me. Bought a few things for the house & my room. Total...*ching ching* $152.00. plus cab fee...around $170.

Ironic isn't it?? At 4am, I was still making last minute kueh all alone.
Had a little chat with Hunn at 2.30am.