/ 6:05 AM

nana & me had a converstaion on sex after our marriage.

yana: won't it be sucky if your husband sees your stretch marks while he's doing "it" with you?
nana: off the lights.
yana: ouh...clever! then what if he touches them?
nana: u can feel them?
yana: uhuh

so yeh...i was actually concern about that. so nana & me made a date to refine our skin before our marriage. she said she would have to earn a lot to go for surgeries & thangs like dat.

it's 5.53am & im still wide awake. was doing mah work while i took care of ameerah. she pissed me off when she messed my room again. grrr...

isn't it sucky when u read your old diaries. i came across mah little diary where my life was written in it. stories about mah first boyfriend till mah last one were written in there. how i actually hoped to last with that someone & how that didn't happen in the end. how mush i have grown with that someone & how hurt i got when things got out of hand.

"that 2mnths was not a waste of time. instead it was the time where i learnt so much things on life & things i missed out on. that was the moment i actually grow up so much." - i smiled as i read that phrase. he should know who he is, for several times i have told him how much he has taught me & made me who i am today. :)

**i actually dreamt about hunn again. i dreamt that i was lost at marine parade. i called him in the middle of the night. despite him being tired & sleepy & already sleeping, he came down to look for me. **sheesh...**
love you hunn. muarks** & hugz**
tu ah...setiap kali aku gi marine parade, confrim sesatnyer!

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 6:05 AM

nana & me had a converstaion on sex after our marriage.

yana: won't it be sucky if your husband sees your stretch marks while he's doing "it" with you?
nana: off the lights.
yana: ouh...clever! then what if he touches them?
nana: u can feel them?
yana: uhuh

so yeh...i was actually concern about that. so nana & me made a date to refine our skin before our marriage. she said she would have to earn a lot to go for surgeries & thangs like dat.

it's 5.53am & im still wide awake. was doing mah work while i took care of ameerah. she pissed me off when she messed my room again. grrr...

isn't it sucky when u read your old diaries. i came across mah little diary where my life was written in it. stories about mah first boyfriend till mah last one were written in there. how i actually hoped to last with that someone & how that didn't happen in the end. how mush i have grown with that someone & how hurt i got when things got out of hand.

"that 2mnths was not a waste of time. instead it was the time where i learnt so much things on life & things i missed out on. that was the moment i actually grow up so much." - i smiled as i read that phrase. he should know who he is, for several times i have told him how much he has taught me & made me who i am today. :)

**i actually dreamt about hunn again. i dreamt that i was lost at marine parade. i called him in the middle of the night. despite him being tired & sleepy & already sleeping, he came down to look for me. **sheesh...**
love you hunn. muarks** & hugz**
tu ah...setiap kali aku gi marine parade, confrim sesatnyer!