/ 10:27 PM

lets all of us put our hands together, face your head down, close your eyes...&...think...

lets take this special moment to think about DREAMS.
S.I inspired me to write on this topic.

I sat there outside of Art Friend to fill in an application form. a form which determines my future. Im in a situation where it's a challenge between *following mah heart* & *better place to be in*.
deep within, i do know what i want in life. the things i love to do, and what i wish to become. but following mah heart means, fetching mahself back to mah old self. maybe it's da' international school-government school thing. i duno. cos i have spent 3 years of mah life being with people with very different attitudes to the ones i have met back then in high school & p.school. it feels very different. im happier in mah present education state. nothing againts government school students duh!!! cause i've been there too. but i just feel the difference. maybe, maturity level is higher where i am now. i leanrt a lot. plus the old conservative girl has turned into an opened-minded one. its not a bad thang. instead, that is a privilidge for me. im no more the girl at the corner of the class all by herself while others talk bout fun things. im now one of those people & im loving it.

to follow on to where i am right now, but knowing that deep within, i do not really adore what i am doing means sacrificing mah true passion. but it also means, gaining the chance to grow up & staying all alone!!! hella' fun!!!

so you see people, dreams are there. we have to reach out for them. but then, we're given many routes that shall link us right there-DREAMS. it's a choice.
like a box of chocolates...
u duno what flavours they are until u get a bite of them one by one. but all of them are nice. one is better than the other. you pick which one you like...
you pick the route you wanna take...

and having to leave that someone very special deep in mah heart, is not an easy thang. its taking away half of me. he means the world to me. he shines in mah life. he stands up for me. he stood by me in mah toughest hours. he listens. he dreams with me. if those part away from me...it's not ME!!!!

pray for me.......... ****dreams do come true!!!****

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 10:27 PM

lets all of us put our hands together, face your head down, close your eyes...&...think...

lets take this special moment to think about DREAMS.
S.I inspired me to write on this topic.

I sat there outside of Art Friend to fill in an application form. a form which determines my future. Im in a situation where it's a challenge between *following mah heart* & *better place to be in*.
deep within, i do know what i want in life. the things i love to do, and what i wish to become. but following mah heart means, fetching mahself back to mah old self. maybe it's da' international school-government school thing. i duno. cos i have spent 3 years of mah life being with people with very different attitudes to the ones i have met back then in high school & p.school. it feels very different. im happier in mah present education state. nothing againts government school students duh!!! cause i've been there too. but i just feel the difference. maybe, maturity level is higher where i am now. i leanrt a lot. plus the old conservative girl has turned into an opened-minded one. its not a bad thang. instead, that is a privilidge for me. im no more the girl at the corner of the class all by herself while others talk bout fun things. im now one of those people & im loving it.

to follow on to where i am right now, but knowing that deep within, i do not really adore what i am doing means sacrificing mah true passion. but it also means, gaining the chance to grow up & staying all alone!!! hella' fun!!!

so you see people, dreams are there. we have to reach out for them. but then, we're given many routes that shall link us right there-DREAMS. it's a choice.
like a box of chocolates...
u duno what flavours they are until u get a bite of them one by one. but all of them are nice. one is better than the other. you pick which one you like...
you pick the route you wanna take...

and having to leave that someone very special deep in mah heart, is not an easy thang. its taking away half of me. he means the world to me. he shines in mah life. he stands up for me. he stood by me in mah toughest hours. he listens. he dreams with me. if those part away from me...it's not ME!!!!

pray for me.......... ****dreams do come true!!!****