The People on Earth / 10:41 PM

its not everyday that you get to meet certain great people who would stick by you throughout your life & simply makes you happy by their presence.

i began to think of what life would be like without certain people in mine.
with some people who already walked out on me, life hasn't been the same. best friends in particular. it hurts so much to see your best friend go without even saying a goodbye. it sucks when they do certain things that hurt you so deeply. it sucks to know that she goes to someone else for comfort instead of you. and i cant imagine what life would be like if adi wasnt part of my life. with my best friends gone, i dont think i could survive. for that, i thank god so much for blessing me with him.

lord, u have no idea how much that gift means to me. that gift we all call a true friend. others misjudge him. i dun care what people think of him. they dont know him. i see a side which others dont. he has always been there to hear mah shit. and i thank you lord for blessing me with mah sis as well. she's my joy. she makes me smile when im down with her stupid acts. i love u ameerah!

life hasnt been great. it has been a bucket of shit for me. i sat down with only one person on my mind who has been my strengh to carry on. if only i could put up my courage to tell mum or dad on how much i need them at this moment. if only they'd understand.
if only granddad is still alive to hug me & make me feel like the world is away from shit like these. if only that parcular person still exist in my life to hear me cry & tell me to look at the bright side of life. if only others could understand me better. deep within that happy, giggly, bubbly girl is a girl crying in pain.

lord, ur my savour. please be here for me cos i really need you! i dont wish to go back on doing the shit i did before...




if only u all could see what i have to go through i went on with life to impress others. i hated it so i quit. but why when im living my life to impress myself, people do shit to make me feel bad?! it sux like hell.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

The People on Earth / 10:41 PM

its not everyday that you get to meet certain great people who would stick by you throughout your life & simply makes you happy by their presence.

i began to think of what life would be like without certain people in mine.
with some people who already walked out on me, life hasn't been the same. best friends in particular. it hurts so much to see your best friend go without even saying a goodbye. it sucks when they do certain things that hurt you so deeply. it sucks to know that she goes to someone else for comfort instead of you. and i cant imagine what life would be like if adi wasnt part of my life. with my best friends gone, i dont think i could survive. for that, i thank god so much for blessing me with him.

lord, u have no idea how much that gift means to me. that gift we all call a true friend. others misjudge him. i dun care what people think of him. they dont know him. i see a side which others dont. he has always been there to hear mah shit. and i thank you lord for blessing me with mah sis as well. she's my joy. she makes me smile when im down with her stupid acts. i love u ameerah!

life hasnt been great. it has been a bucket of shit for me. i sat down with only one person on my mind who has been my strengh to carry on. if only i could put up my courage to tell mum or dad on how much i need them at this moment. if only they'd understand.
if only granddad is still alive to hug me & make me feel like the world is away from shit like these. if only that parcular person still exist in my life to hear me cry & tell me to look at the bright side of life. if only others could understand me better. deep within that happy, giggly, bubbly girl is a girl crying in pain.

lord, ur my savour. please be here for me cos i really need you! i dont wish to go back on doing the shit i did before...




if only u all could see what i have to go through i went on with life to impress others. i hated it so i quit. but why when im living my life to impress myself, people do shit to make me feel bad?! it sux like hell.