/ 10:00 PM

another late night for me last night.
eating tons of fruits before you go to bsd is not a very good idea, cause u'll end up having tummy ache just like me. that lead me to sleeping at 5am, with the company of ayang who woke up in the middle of the night, and couldn't get back to sleep.

planned to meet louis at 10am, but ended waking up at 3pm instead & rushing to school. i felt so phathetic when i had to tell him that i didn't get the first job, and that i have to go for another interview the next day. this time, please collective design firm...please employ me to work for you for 29 days.

dad has been pressuring me to decide on my future asap, meaning he wants me to take a degree. i planned to work & am done with school, but he wants me to have the highest level of education as possible. but isn't this my choice? he won't even listen to what i want, instead go for what he wants. i need a break from school, but he won't let me. i need a vacation. i wanna go bangkok again. have fun...!!! he keeps on mentionong SIM, University of New South Wales, Cambridge Uni, Curtin...blah blah blah. that was what i talked about 24/7, but right now, my plans have changed. i duno what i really want, so please stop pushing me too hard. dad believes in getting as much knowledge in different lines as possible. im done with the design field. he wants me to go for the writing & management field. i feel like austin from a cinderella story. dad pressuring kids scenario.

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 10:00 PM

another late night for me last night.
eating tons of fruits before you go to bsd is not a very good idea, cause u'll end up having tummy ache just like me. that lead me to sleeping at 5am, with the company of ayang who woke up in the middle of the night, and couldn't get back to sleep.

planned to meet louis at 10am, but ended waking up at 3pm instead & rushing to school. i felt so phathetic when i had to tell him that i didn't get the first job, and that i have to go for another interview the next day. this time, please collective design firm...please employ me to work for you for 29 days.

dad has been pressuring me to decide on my future asap, meaning he wants me to take a degree. i planned to work & am done with school, but he wants me to have the highest level of education as possible. but isn't this my choice? he won't even listen to what i want, instead go for what he wants. i need a break from school, but he won't let me. i need a vacation. i wanna go bangkok again. have fun...!!! he keeps on mentionong SIM, University of New South Wales, Cambridge Uni, Curtin...blah blah blah. that was what i talked about 24/7, but right now, my plans have changed. i duno what i really want, so please stop pushing me too hard. dad believes in getting as much knowledge in different lines as possible. im done with the design field. he wants me to go for the writing & management field. i feel like austin from a cinderella story. dad pressuring kids scenario.