/ 8:30 PM

it was such'a tiring day for me yesterday. maybe, heels was the prob. i went to bed at 11pm. poor adi has this problem these few days, whereby he would wake up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. he beeped me at 3.30am. i woke up and accompanied ayang for a while, but knocked off again at 4.30am. sorry dear. too tired ah.

hari raya haji 2moro, but hiyas's 21st bday bash falls on the same date. bah. so i thought i would go at night with ayang. and i still haven't get anything yet for her. last minute shopping at parkway i guess. that is if dad is giving me some money.

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i still owe hakim a birthday date which adi wouldn't let me go to. bummer. he said things like : i trust you but u should know how i feel. would u even let me go when i asked u if i could go out with my girl friends? even of it's FRIENDS? so there you go...
hakim and me lost contact for a while, but ever since i went down to Temasek Poly and looked for him, it kindda got us back talking to each other.

***

it's funny and sad to see how much your friends have actually changed just because we don't spend as much time togther like before. ever since secondary school & college are over for us, friends seem to go their own ways. and when they see you, they just seem to act differently. except for one..aileen. girl, thanks for still being the same even though u got a bf now. it's really, really nice that your bf gets along with me very weel. he's a nice guy girl! these days, the only friends i have are her & my hunny. my world seems so lonely. but who says life's fair right? it's always unfair....

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

/ 8:30 PM

it was such'a tiring day for me yesterday. maybe, heels was the prob. i went to bed at 11pm. poor adi has this problem these few days, whereby he would wake up in the middle of the night and couldn't get back to sleep. he beeped me at 3.30am. i woke up and accompanied ayang for a while, but knocked off again at 4.30am. sorry dear. too tired ah.

hari raya haji 2moro, but hiyas's 21st bday bash falls on the same date. bah. so i thought i would go at night with ayang. and i still haven't get anything yet for her. last minute shopping at parkway i guess. that is if dad is giving me some money.

***

i still owe hakim a birthday date which adi wouldn't let me go to. bummer. he said things like : i trust you but u should know how i feel. would u even let me go when i asked u if i could go out with my girl friends? even of it's FRIENDS? so there you go...
hakim and me lost contact for a while, but ever since i went down to Temasek Poly and looked for him, it kindda got us back talking to each other.

***

it's funny and sad to see how much your friends have actually changed just because we don't spend as much time togther like before. ever since secondary school & college are over for us, friends seem to go their own ways. and when they see you, they just seem to act differently. except for one..aileen. girl, thanks for still being the same even though u got a bf now. it's really, really nice that your bf gets along with me very weel. he's a nice guy girl! these days, the only friends i have are her & my hunny. my world seems so lonely. but who says life's fair right? it's always unfair....