me again... / 9:31 PM

my day at work was very "entah aper". i duno how to say it. i basically did nothing much. i pretended to be working, but i was simply surfing the net, using the office phone and sleeping when no one was watching. everyone seemed stressed with their projects. poor vin always kene marah. i don't blame anyone lah, cos designers are born to snap.

so when i really had nothing to do, i kept on going to the loo. not to loo, but more to sleep. 2nd boss gave me something very tedious and lame to do in teh office. i had to shred a whole pile of confidential sheets. the worst thing is, the shredder needs a break like every 10mins. i hate shredder machines cos they scare me. it makes me think it's gonna take in my little fingers anytime.

i had the wrost nightmare ever. it involves love & family. i ain't saying whose in there but there were 2 ppl i hate, 1 guy i truly love & another guy who wasn't even supposed to jejak into my dream. shawn toh! my classmate shawn toh was there. and when i did tell shawn about the whole dream, he presented me with a shit icon in msn. some gratitude u get after letting someone enter your dream!

im waiting for 10.30pm. this is so deja vu. cos i remember looking and looking to my wrist watch waiting for 6pm when i was at work just now. im waiting for lilies. i have to pick her up later. she's staying over for the sake of accompanying my lonely self. someone has been ignoring me and ain't trying to make it too obvious. and again, i shan't mention names.

so enuff of my babbling lah. and one thing i really don't get it until today is, when u go into higher nitec, are you like still in the same ite campus? pasal some people said yes, some said no. so in summary, i don't know. so tag me people who know better...

write about yourself here like how you lived through a crisis like the morrocian crisis. erps, have you studied about that before and about your test, how easy it is and how much confidence you have to pass and get all A1s for all subjects, add in your own wish here, and what you would do if target is not reached, like slash your wrist, eat many many painkiller pills at one shot and die. lol it's suicidal thoughts. stay away from that. but you need to enter a reality, everyone's doing that- it's the trend, so why not follow it. unless you want to be an odd one out. cause slashing wrist is soo common in girls school not in boys school. boys suicide, just like die gracefully from 30th storey, just look on the bright side, maybe you have lived in a lie too long and so you have found out the turth now, just think. optimist wins. you have entered into a world of reality



We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer you need to enter into your own reality and reflect




it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. done with the old back with the new

i've hiatus-ed.

me again... / 9:31 PM

my day at work was very "entah aper". i duno how to say it. i basically did nothing much. i pretended to be working, but i was simply surfing the net, using the office phone and sleeping when no one was watching. everyone seemed stressed with their projects. poor vin always kene marah. i don't blame anyone lah, cos designers are born to snap.

so when i really had nothing to do, i kept on going to the loo. not to loo, but more to sleep. 2nd boss gave me something very tedious and lame to do in teh office. i had to shred a whole pile of confidential sheets. the worst thing is, the shredder needs a break like every 10mins. i hate shredder machines cos they scare me. it makes me think it's gonna take in my little fingers anytime.

i had the wrost nightmare ever. it involves love & family. i ain't saying whose in there but there were 2 ppl i hate, 1 guy i truly love & another guy who wasn't even supposed to jejak into my dream. shawn toh! my classmate shawn toh was there. and when i did tell shawn about the whole dream, he presented me with a shit icon in msn. some gratitude u get after letting someone enter your dream!

im waiting for 10.30pm. this is so deja vu. cos i remember looking and looking to my wrist watch waiting for 6pm when i was at work just now. im waiting for lilies. i have to pick her up later. she's staying over for the sake of accompanying my lonely self. someone has been ignoring me and ain't trying to make it too obvious. and again, i shan't mention names.

so enuff of my babbling lah. and one thing i really don't get it until today is, when u go into higher nitec, are you like still in the same ite campus? pasal some people said yes, some said no. so in summary, i don't know. so tag me people who know better...