Friday, April 29, 2005
Constantine out?! *what?!* / 6:05 AM
shira dearest, i do not look like suzanne walker . she looks like me! hurhur. hey people, do i look like suzanne walker? *laughs*
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would someone pinch me! was i dreaming when constantine got the lowest number of votes and had to go home?! i practically stood frozen infront of the tv hoping that i could have enough energy left to grab the remote to press the replay button or something. i somehow hoped the replay button could bring the scene back to when ryan was still putting scott & constantine in the right places. and i somehow hoped the other group was announced as the bottom 3 group, instead of the group where constantine was in. like how the fuck would AI be without that guy?! and how the fuck did scott manage to be in the top 3?! i bet his fucking family was enthusiastically (spelling??) smsming like a billion times, to have him still in the competition. please oh please let scott be the next one to go home! *sobs* i am already missing that yellowed-teeth constantine.
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hearing the word "NS" is enough to make me gulp down my saliva as many times as possible until i get sore throat. seeing my frens in those uniforms or "selekeh" t-shirts taking pictures by the bunk bed is even worst. i know im strong enough to go through this. dear lord, please stay by my side while he's gone ... *sobs*
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 