Sunday, April 24, 2005
pool freak / 6:28 PM
"thank you" (notice the sarcasim) to ayang & jake for getting me addicted to yahoo online pool. maybe i shall try wearing skirts 2moro, and behave like a pure woman instead of having my ears listened and influenced by the male dominent. i did not sleep for the past 3 nights for 2 reasons.
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1st thing reason : something personal
2nd reason : those boys gave me a reason not to be thinking too much about the "1st reason". and that was when they introduced yahoo online pool to me. and because of that, panadol extra has been my late nights remedy.
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i couldnt take it when i kept on losing to the million other pool freaks. and i chose to play with only boys, because of my and their competitive spirit. playing with girls fucked me up. cos when they win, they'd go like, "you suck at this" or "hey i gave that free ball for you". like as if i can't do any better than them. girls are snobbish. i admit. and that is why playing games with guys is much more fun.
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i was new. i sucked. i didnt know of some things. but these 3 days of being glued infront of the comp have taught me a lot. the ones who played with me taught me how to win. what the hell was "english"? i finally knew that term. the term they use in a pool game. *giggles*. and also, i came out with a strategy. guys are weak in a way. and we girls do know in what ways they are weak. so to win the game, i flirt. distract them. and say things like, "be nice. i don't like it rough." it's not cheating. it's called strategy and "the power of a woman's mind". *giggles*
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and suddenly, pool freaks came up to me and asked, "are you the girl who played it well? cause i heard it from my fren that your good at this game." me good? i suck i tell ya. and when i win, they'd say i make them look bad in the score record board to be beaten by a girl. and some would just forfeit the shit before i score that black ball. bloody hairy creatures! scady-cats!
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 