Tuesday, April 19, 2005
what's in there?? / 4:38 AM
what's in the wallet?
the ear-rings r not supposed to b there.
wrong photo!! but who cares!!
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what's in the box?
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...and the 2/3 of the collection...
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and here's what i wanna say...
dad took a little time yesterday to understand me, even if it was for a short moment. i am a strong person. but at times when things get way too hard on me, i would just break down and cry infront of the people who hurt me. one thing others should know about me is, im a very sensitive and emotional person. u miss a word, or use the wrong word on me, i can blast out and cry, or scream or whatever. i was touched when dad tried to make me feel better after that, which is not an everyday thing.
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it brought back traces of memories when my family and i went to west mall. of all the places i could have brought them to, i brought them there. and when dad asked me who i went there with before, there was a huge lump in my throat when i mentioned "his" name. it was the place where my ex-boyfriend and me went to buy shoes and eat chicken rice. i do not miss him, but all i felt was hatred. and when i mentioned his name to dad, he looked away, cos i know what was going on in his mind. i hate him for causing so much trouble. i hate him for even entering my life at the first place.
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i have a blogging partner who has got to be the best. bloggers always go to your blogs to tag and comment on little things. or sometimes criticize you about things you dont even wish for them to mention. and when u chat with them thru msn, they're busy updating their blogs and after that asks you to read it just to get an extra number on the site meter. or sometimes, they would bug you to tag them, even when they have nothing to tag about. but...zulhairy is different. me and him sleep super late everyday. why? cause we blog. and we blog together. he shares with me some secrets, some ideas, and comments on how to make my blog a better place for others to look at. i love his blog cos it's pretty much like a typical website where people would sit down and stare at for hours. he has music, mp3, games and shits like that. he shares them with me. that's like super sweet of him. we chat thru' msn while blogging. we share our thoughts. we tell each other the little things that's going on around us at that moment ... yes the late night moments when everyone else is alseep. tada...there you go zulhairy. that was your credit from me...*smiles*
We know life's hard, truth is hard, lies are hard, they are all hard to accept when they have been
found out, and i'm rushing history homework on the Abyissian Crisis about Italy and Abyssia going into war and that the League Of Nations cannot stop this from happening, and beacuse they are formed by means to stop war and
peace-keep the countries together, they have thus failed to achieve that. I think i tend to hold a class for history instead of telling you about me, i'm basically a what subject-realted lover (humanities) and thus
I am more analytical and critical about things, and likes to study about dead people, haha. lol. it's history what can you expect and also geography, it amazes me. I really like it alot, so what have you? Again to find this answer
you need to enter into your own reality and reflect
it's amazing. amzing how people change the way of things, like how I used to hate outdoors in Band
felt it was a complete waste of time, i've acquired to like it more, i guess people change, their thereotical means and applications in life just goes on into a new direction, and see things in another perspective, i guess- it's
all in the mind. It really amazes me how these comes into action, from someone so pessimistic has changed his own view of things, and thus my friend is scoring much better, being more optimisitc and not think of his old way of suicidal
thoughts, which are pretty daunting. and thus we need to see things, in another light, another perspective and another new way, to enable us to open up our minds, and make more new things, the new way it is. 